I have wondered whether or not to post this, especially as probably a lot more people than usual will see my blog today. (By the way, a huge thank-you to the lovely Erin of Sweetness Itself for featuring my blog.) But perhaps that was the Lord’s plan in this. Perhaps some of you are experiencing something similar and could use some encouragement. One of my favorite quotes, and one that has helped me through several struggles this past year, is this quote by John MacArthur:
“Struggles – neither good nor bad – those things which put you on your knees, strip you of your spiritual pride, and cause you to be able to minister (or relate) to those who are suffering.”
It is my prayer that as I get stretched in my faith and am challenged to unquestioningly trust the Lord, that I would be an encouragement to you.
Yesterday, I found out that due to budget cuts my position at Grace Community Church was being eliminated and I have only two more weeks of work. It came as a shock to me. Yesterday was definitely an emotional day, but one that I am eternally grateful for.
I see the Lord’s hand at work through the whole thing and it has been a sweet privilege to witness how (unbeknownst to me) He has been preparing me for this. Down to the smallest kindness, I see my Father’s hand in this. He had already ordained for that day that I would be going to lunch with my dad, meeting with my discipler/mentor, and attending Bible study that evening. He knew that I would need to be surrounded with other believers who would come alongside me and bear this burden with me.
As the Lord would have it, last night’s Bible study was about trials. The leader of our Bible study spoke on Psalm 13. The last two verses of Psalm 13 say:
“But I have trusted in Your lovingkindness; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me.”
It was such a fitting passage to study last night. No matter what we lose – a job, a loved one, a home – we cannot lose our salvation. During difficult times, we can cling to the truth that we can rejoice no matter what because we have received the most precious gift of all. The Lord has dealt bountifully with us.
As I have pondered and prayed about what the Lord is doing, I have been reminded of that truth and several others that I would like to share:
- I have been reminded of the sweetness of fellowship with believers. I couldn’t help the tears the rolled down my cheeks last night at Bible study. Not because I was so upset about my job situation, but because of the goodness of God to give the gift of believers. We are not living this life alone. He has given us others to come alongside us.
- I have been reminded of the necessity of memorizing Scripture. Since I found out about my job, verses have been popping in and out of my mind. They are comforting and refreshing. “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26
- I have been reminded to be thankful for the Lord’s gift of my family, in-laws, and husband. They are the most supportive and encouraging people in the world.
- I have been reminded that the Lord is in control. He has a plan.
So while I am sad, I am trusting in the Lord and savoring His goodness. I have been wondering what He will have me do with my life these past few months. This is an answer to prayer because He has made it clear that it is time to move on and He has a plan for me. It is a comfort to my heart that the Lord thinks that this is the best situation for His glory and my sanctification. He would not have ordained this if it was not the thing that would bring Him the most honor. Praise the Lord!